Her Visage in my silent Reverie

You summoned my surrender and so I succumbed to you,
not to your beauty but to your fierceness.
in the light you flirt with the masses
but when the moon comes up, it pulls you to me and me to you
but this love is one sided for in no way are you mine
only that I am yours
I can hardly think around you as your tranquil rhythm buries my thoughts
for within you is a pattern so complex I will never understand
a pattern that can take any victim it likes
but tonight it chooses me

In the morning you’ll be transparent with the world
you show me only mystery
only secrecy
somehow more special than the superficial truths you reveal to others
for although it is darkness it is powerful and it is only mine to revere

Even as I leave, you continue to call me
But your spell ends at sun up
when once again you turn to pleasing others and I am left loving you like them.
i will wait for your beckon
never ceasing my humble desire
only patient for your honored reciprocation

Sometimes I’m angry at the world,
As the pain inside beings to unfurl.
I thought you were the one, my forever,
The person to plan a future with, but you only saw a lover.

I thought I’d found someone who would stay through all the crap,
When you said its over, it was more painful than a slap.
I was wrong, it’s time to put you behind me,
To look to the future, that is bright and free.

But probably I’ll always love you, no matter the pain you caused,
And right now it feels like my life has paused.
But I’ll smile again, I’ll laugh again and one day I’ll love again
Good luck with your future and shall my happiness once more reign.